10 Months

Today has been a hard day. Really hard in fact. I woke up knowing that it was the 23rd, but not fully anticipating all of the emotion that accompanied this date... on this day. I kind of feel like I am all over the place emotionally, and I know that is to be expected. I continue to covet your prayers as we celebrate the beautiful miracles of our two precious children here with us and thank the Lord for our beautiful miracle baby in Heaven.

Through the tears, joy still overflows. I couldn't help but smile today as I looked at newborn pictures of both of our boys with Faith Clare in the flesh lying in the middle... what a beautiful sight. I am filled with gratitude when I look into the precious face of our baby girl. In her face I see hope, love, peace, restoration... She has created a new place in my heart that could only be fully realized by seeing her, by holding her, and by whispering sweet prayers to her that are shared only with our Lord. When I look into her eyes, I am so thankful... thankful that her presence today was made possible by the Creator of the Universe... thankful that her presence was preceded by her tiny brother Maddox.

Maddox, we love you! Your baby sister has arrived to our family and we feel so blessed... yet we still miss you greatly on this, your 10 month birthday. We hope you had a beautiful day with our Lord and all your friends!

My babies...
Faith Clare
Maddox
Deacon

"He said to them, 'Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.' And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them."- Mark 10:13-16

Comments

sumi said…
Ohhhh Kenzie...HUGS...
Tara said…
Sweet Kenzie, I thought something today at church was heavy on your heart. (Your smile didn't seem as big) My heart rejoices for you and for your precious children, but I also know those days that are hard to get through. The days that we remember. It sometimes so hard to see everyone else and life going on, but we have heavy hearts remembering every important day and hour of our kids in heaven. The day is getting closer of Saria's heavenly birthday.(Dec. 2, at 10:14am) And even though it has been 7 years my heart aches and rejoices just like the day she went to be with Jesus. My thoughts and prayers are with you. (ps I LOVE the verse at the bottom. That is the verse we put on Saria's headstone!)
Elaine said…
What a beautiful post. All three of your babies are beautiful.. Still praying and asking God for peace filled days ahead.
Vanessa said…
Kenzie, My prayers are with you on this day!! May God give you te strength and courage you need! HUGS!
Jenn said…
Kenzie... you don't know me, but I'm thinking of and praying for you on this day.

I was looking at the three pictures you posted, of your three beautiful children. I know your heart must be so full right now. Full of love, joy, peace, thanksgiving. And full of sorrow and pain. All at once.
StephG said…
God blessed you with such beautiful children. Two with you physically and one with you for just a moment...how precious they are.

I will be praying for you and your family today and in the days to come!
Tina said…
I'm new to your blog, came here via Boothe's. What a journey you have been on. I will pray for your family and know that God's strength is what makes the difference! {{{Hugs}}}
Laurie said…
Praying for you Kenzie as I can only imagine the heaviness your heart holds. It is a delicate balance and I am asking the Lord to help you as your heart tries to balance. You have the most beautiful babies and each one is a precious gift. Praying you through my sweet friend.

Love and Hugs, Laurie in Ca.
Christa Mc said…
wish i could be over there to just be there for you... you know you are always in my thoughts and prayers - i'm sure that although you do see the huge blessing in Faith Clare -it is a painful reminder of what could have been with sweet Maddox.. I love seeing the three baby pictures of them all together.. praying for you. Christa
Corie said…
How precious ALL your children are. Remembering and missing Maddox and Larson with you! I can only imagine how wonderful it is to be with the Lord. Have a good Thanksgiving.
Anonymous said…
Praying that God will bring you peace today and in the weeks to come as you proceed through the holidays. You daughter is absolutely beautiful!!
Mel said…
Prayers, thank you for being vunerable and open...
walkingbyfaith said…
Praying for you and sending my biggest hugs!

Love!
mrsrubly said…
o kenzie! your babies are beautiful and look so much alike! happy 10 months Maddox. you are missed and loved so very much.
Staci said…
Beautiful babies! Happy 10 month birthday Maddox.
Laura said…
So many dates will bring it all back to the surface! Thank you for sharing...praying for your heart today. xoxo
Devin said…
I'm sad and happy all at the same time with you Kenzie. Praying for you on this day. Love ya girl.
Shannon said…
I'm so sorry Kenzie. I feel your pain with you and join you in prayer. I've recently started following your story via String Of Pearls. I'll tell you my story another time, but today just know I am praying for your heart.

Shannon
AmandaHoyt said…
Beautiful post and beautiful babies.
I'm praying for you today.
Hugs,
Amanda
connie said…
Kenzie,
You are in my prayers tonight. Faith is such a gift, but I know your heart misses Maddox, too.

This is a beautiful post, to see your babies all together.
love, connie
Rachel E. said…
What beautiful babies!
Devon Rene said…
she's beautiful. i can only imagine the emotions that come with having a new baby after having lost one....

praying one day we get to experience that joy again.

god bless.
Keisha said…
where have I been?!!
Congrats!! She is So Beautiful!! I'm so happy for you guys!
A little Miracle!
Blessings,
Keisha
Katie said…
Praying for you Kenzie. All three of your babies are beautiful and they all look so much alike! :-)
2jne said…
Kenzie,

I have read your blog for a while and have been praying for you. I will continue to pray for you. All three of your babies are so beautiful!!

Jessica
Tricia said…
I can't even begin to understand what you are going through but I know, as you do, that our God is so amazing and will carry you through. Thank you so much for taking the time to update so we know better how to pray. God has blessed you with 3 beautiful children! I can't wait to add more "little feet" to my home! God bless you and I will be praying!

Tricia, Tobyhanna, PA

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