Still Here

Just wanted to update quickly and let you know that I am still here... in the hospital.  I was hoping that because everything seemed to calm down on Thursday evening that I would be able to go home on Friday, but my doctor is sweet and just wants to make sure there isn't something that they are missing.  She definitely knows how important it is for us to go home with a healthy baby girl!

I have had 2 ultrasounds since being here and although they don't see any obvious reason for the bleeding, the thought now is that there is a small tear on the back side of my placenta that they aren't seeing.  If that is the case, the occasional bleeding would be from there.  Thankfully my body seems to know what to do when the supposed tear opens and it clots quickly, but it is a scary prospect that it could happen again or get worse... especially when we aren't certain that is the cause.  

I have remained on the Procardia since I arrived and have somehow managed to stay off of the magnesium, although my contractions do continue (but without any predictable pattern, except for at night).  Tomorrow they plan to do another FFT to see if anything has changed from a few weeks ago.  We're hoping it will be negative again and that I will be able to go home tomorrow without much problem.  The goal is to remain low-key and as the on-call doctor said "status quo".  

I have thought several times about updating before now, but I feel like I have really zoned out this time being in the hospital.  My days have all pretty much blended together and I don't know that I'm being very productive; doing a little email, watching a little TV, playing a few games and reading my Bible here and there.  I really could be more efficient but somehow I don't feel up for much right now. 

My parents did come up here last night with Dusty and Deacon, although I wasn't sure that's what I wanted.  I was concerned about Deacon coming up again because he has returned to his emotional self (like he was last time I was here and for several days after), but last evening was great!  Thank you so much for praying for him!!  We had a great time while he was here. For almost 3 hours we played Candy Land, Thomas games on the computer, ball with Daddy and Papa, and he even got to go see "baby Faith" when they did my ultrasound.  He left in a great mood and I was really happy.  Again, thank you so much for praying!

I would ask that you continue to pray for him as he starts preschool for the first time tomorrow morning.  Honestly, I had really gotten over the fact that I wouldn't be able to take him this semester and it was okay, but now that I'm back in the hospital, I won't even get to see him leave for his first day or be home when he returns.  I am really bummed!

Besides being here, we are doing pretty well and getting some logistical things figured out for the next several weeks.  Thankfully my parents and mother-in-law have been here and been tremendous help since they have each arrived.  I am so grateful for all the people that have helped us out and all those that continue offering to help our family!  Things are really coming together and I know that God is using so many to provide for us in this crazy time.

Thank you for loving on us and praying for our family!  We are SO extremely grateful!

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."- Romans 8:28 


Hey girl! Joels first day of preschool was the day Alex was born. It is so hard to missthings like that, but you are whre you need to be, and I know Deacon will be great!
Thinking of you daily, and PRAYING!

Anonymous said…
I will continue to pray for you and yours! God Bless, Melissa
Rebekah said…
Hello! I am new here, and just wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts!
Devin said…
My heart just is aching right now over the fact that you are there and I am here. I wish so much that we lived closer so that I could help out with things....I know that prayer is the best thing that I can be doing, but sometimes I just feel so helpless that I am not able to do more for you. I sure would like to!

I am soooooo very glad to read about your visit with Deacon. That is wonderful that everything went so well! Yay to Jesus for answered prayers.

I will be on my knees for you all until the next word (and after that, too, of course!)

Love ya girl...
ITA said…
My precious Kenzie!

I am praying, praying and praying. My heart aches for not being there for you and the boys. I do know this, that the Lord is able to do more than any one of us can imagine. I will continue to lift you and my little Faith so she can be healthy and strong when she finally arrives. As for Deacon and Dusty, I lift them up too and ask for the Lord's grace and mercy and peace. Psalm 20 will be my prayer for all of you in the coming days and weeks. All my love!!!

Laura said… are a sweet mama. xoxo
Laurie said…
Hey Sweetie,

I am bummed right along with you that you are stuck in the hospital and missing out on some of Deacon's "firsts". It hurts a mommy's heart for sure. But I am so thankful your doctor is so compassionate and determined to take great care in getting FC here safe and healthy. I am praying for you and for Deacons heart to somehow understand that this is just temporary for all of you. I love you and will keep praying for every need you have to be met. God is good all the time isn't He?

Hugs and Love, Laurie in Ca.
JuJu - said…
I am praying for you and sending you a hug - hang in there and know you have so many Momma's all across the country praying for you:)
So Blessed said…
Praying for you, Kenzie...and baby Faith and Dusty and Deacon. I pray that everything goes well and that you can go home soon.
Jennifer said…
Love you girl! So glad to hear that your evening with Deacon was good. I saw him this morning after church and his little smile was lighting up the room as usual. Praying that all tests go well tomorrow so that you can be HOME! Praying that HIS Peace sustain you!!! Hang in there!
Tanya said…
I'm glad you had a good visit with Deacon and family...I'm sure that lifted everyone's spirits. Do NOT worry about being productive right is called bed REST for a reason! =)

And please feel confident that Deacon is going to be in safe and caring hands at kids have been at that preschool since Jan. 2004, and we love it!

Take care--Tanya
Christine said…
My heart just smiled when I read that you had a great night with Deacon. We have been diligently praying for that sweet thing! I will be praying for him tomorrow morning- Tanya is right, he is in very good hands. He will LOVE it!

Praying your test comes out negative and everything cooperates so you can go home. Love ya! Christine
Anonymous said…
I too had preterm labor and spent some time in the hospital with a almost 3 year old at the time. It was hard and I was able to return home with strict bedrest(couch). I will keep you in my prayers as I know this is a difficult time.
Hi sweet Kenzie, Been keeping up with you through Mary Grace Summon's blog. Crazy hackers. Glad to see you're back "up" on blogger. I am continuing to pray for you and Faith. Hang in there girl, you've got FAITH.....

Connie said…
Oh Kenzie,
I know that "bummed" is probably an emotional understatement for how you feel about missing a first of your firstborn. But I hope the rest of the time you are on bedrest, you will feel less that you are "missing" things, than that you are right where you are meant to be.

I was so glad to read how your time with Deacon went. I will be continuing to pray for all of you.

much love, connie
Cathy said…
Oh Kenzie, I am so sorry you are still there. But not for one second should you feel not productive. You are producing precious Baby Faith. There must be a reason for this and it will be a healthy baby girl. Blessings to your precious Deacon and praying for his first day of pre school. Thank you for posting. We all love you so!
Laurie said…
Hi Kenzie,

Just stopping by today to send you some love. I hope you won't have to be there too much longer, unless of course it is for Faith's continued health. I am praying Deacon has a fantastic "Big Boy" day at school today and that he will be excited to tell you all about it. Deacon is definitely on my "little tender hearts" prayer list. Prayers for Dusty too as he does such a wonderful job of juggling during your absence. I love you girl, you know I do!!!

~~*HUGS*~~ from Laurie in Ca.
Kathy said…
Praising God for all the wonderful help that He has provided! So thankful for your wonderful visit.

Praying for all details to keep little Faith right under your heart where she belongs.

I certainly agree with the others, Kenzie that you are to rest, and not to feel guilty for following doctor's orders. I think sometimes God uses these times to get us to stop! and smell the roses! I know it's not easy when you are such a wonderful, busy mom. Think of it as time you are "banking" for when you little Faith arrives and you can't sit with your feet up, or sleep through the night.

Thank you for keeping us updated. Glad you have your laptop!!!

God bless,
Sweet Friend,
It kills me that I can't help out. My girls would love to play with Deacon all day long - they may dress him up and stuff but he would love them! I just feel so helpless....but know I am sending those prayers up every day for you and sweet Faith Clare. I love you friend. You are precious!
Jackie said…
Still praying in IN.

Thank you for the updates.

Jackie Carl (Marion, IN)
walkingbyfaith said…
I just emailed you back and I didn't even realize you were back in the hospital. I'm so glad to hear that you and Faith are doing ok though.

I'm praying that Deacon adjusts to preschool well and has a great time. :)

Big Hugs!!
Allmykids123 said…
Lots of prayers coming your way!
Baby Jacob said…
Hi Sweet friend~
Just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking of you and your family lots and praying. Loving you from afar,
RyanAndrew2007 said…
I'll continue to pray for you and your family.


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