Simple Reflections

So much going on in my mind... but so little actual activity.  My mind is racing with thoughts of the last few years as I sit here this morning, my family at church and me at home on the couch.  So much to do... so many thoughts... the clock is ticking... and yet here I sit.  Reading some scripture has helped and also brought me to tears.  It's crazy how much bed rest can take out of you even though you aren't really doing anything.

The last three weeks haven't been what I expected entering the final weeks of this pregnancy, but I know and trust that the Lord has a plan.  I'm 34 weeks now so we are in a much better situation then when it all began with Faith Clare two years ago, but to be honest I felt a little blindsided.  Thankfully we have been blessed with someone amazing to help me out here at the house and our friends and family have really stepped up to cover us with love, company and meals.

As we anticipate this fourth child in five years, I am astounded at all that we have walked through in a short time.  My body is physically exhausted and sometimes I wonder about my mental clarity (*barely* might be appropriate), but overall we have been abundantly blessed.  I stare at three 11x14 photos of my children on the wall in the living room and close my eyes to imagine the image of my forth to soon join his siblings.  I feel his constant movement and am even a little sad to give him the title of my most active child, which Maddox previously held.  I weep at the thought of not having Maddox here with us, with Deacon and Faith Clare, to celebrate the homecoming of this new little babe and yet I know that each of our days are ordained before even one of them came to be.  I know that God has brought us to this place because He loves us, not in spite of it.  He has poured out His mercy and grace, His peace and joy and love and to be honest, most of the time I feel stronger and more confident in His plan because of it.  For sure there are those moments when I still feel weak and overwhelmed, but praise Him that He can carry me through the weakness, sadness, confusion and lack of control... and then bring me to the other side, ready to bring glory to His name for the abundant blessings and joy in my life. 

I will be sure to keep things updated as we progress into these final weeks before our baby boy arrives.  We can't wait for his arrival and we know that God is doing a BIG work in our lives right now as we trust Him for the health and safety of this sweet boy!  Also, as a total side note, we are considering several different passages of scripture for his "life verse", so if you have a favorite verse that speaks to you and you think we might want to put in the mix, please let us know! Just in case, Deacon's is Psalm 25:5, Maddox's is Isaiah 43:1, and Faith Clare's is Philippians 4:13.

Blessings and JOY for this day!

"Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning."- Psalm 30:5


Devin said…
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Devin said…
Oh, sweetie...just know I am praying for you and this sweet boy every day! I miss the days when we talked more frequently--you know, it's not like we have a lot going on that prevents us from being on here more, right?


Love you Kenzie...Blessings and Joy to YOU on this day, too!
Laurie in Ca. said…
I love you Kenzie and will continue to pray you through. Not long now and you will be holding Scout and drinking in all of his beauty. :)

Love and Hugs, Laurie

Thinking and praying for you. Can't wait to hear about that sweet boy's arrival and his name.

God Bless,

Deb D. said…
I hope you are feeling well and you are experiecing the grace needed for this difficult time. At the times you feel it weighing down, may His Spirit remind you that "this, too, shall pass". More precious days are ahead as you all meet the newest little Stanfield boy, destined from the beginning of time to be part of your wonderful family.

May you feel peace, assurance, and joy in these days. And may your body, mind, and spirit be refreshed.

Deb D.
Deb D. said…
How are you doing?
Andrea said…
Thinking of you and praying for your health and the little one you are carrying. Praying for a safe delivery too. :)
Kathy said…
Hoping and praying things are going well. God bless and keep you and your little one who I am hoping is still tucked safely under your heart until it's time for his birth.
Praying also for lots of help to assist you and your sweet munchkins while you rest.

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