I Will Carry You

I Will Carry You
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen Me
To carry you

These lyrics were written by Angie Smith (in collaboration with her husband Todd from Selah and Christa Wells) to her daughter Audrey Caroline. They just walked through a situation very similar to ours and I wanted to share these beautiful words that absolutely spoke to my heart.

These words bring me to tears as I remember Maddox and all that his little life taught us. I will carry him always... through the coming years. I will carry his life, his story of God's faithfulness, everywhere I go. No matter where our lives take us, no matter what God has in store for us up ahead, sweet Maddox will always be along... he will always be part of our family.

Last night as we were getting ready to put Deacon down, Dusty said, "Mama and Daddy love you so much..." We were waiting for him to finish our little saying because each night we say "Mama and Daddy love you so much, and SO DOES JESUS!" Instead he looked at us and said, "And so does Maddox." We smiled and said yes, that Maddox does love him so much and he thinks he is such a great big brother. Then we said, "But you know Jesus loves you most of all." He said, "Nope, baby Maddox does." It was just one of those things... those reminders that I really needed. Nope, Deacon hasn't forgotten either. ...I hope Maddox enjoyed the balloon we sent to him last night. We watched it disappear into the dark sky behind the trees as Deacon yelled "Hope you like your red balloon baby Maddox!"

Mother's Day was wonderful, and oh so tough... It was a day filled with hope and with loss, joy and tears, but I am so thankful for this life and the ability that God has given me to be a mother. I truly feel that there is no higher calling for my life than to be a mother to my children and share the truth of the Lord with them. Whether they are here in my arms, or in the arms of Jesus, I am so thankful!

"Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe," Hebrews 12:28